More and more, I feel like I'm living a life of regrets and what-could-have-been's. I was woken up this morning by a phone call and haven't been able to get back to sleep. It feels like the worst come down ever (it's not). Hell, I don't know. WHine whine whine. I talk alot about how I'm really trying to live my life totally in the now and worrying about shit later but it's more like I'm getting as fucked up as possible so I won't have to be aware.